Can't put into words

I have not written a blog post in a while and I have really been wanting to post but I haven't known what to write. A lot of things have happened since my last post and I have wanted to write about all of it but I don't really know how to put it into words. If I can ever figure out how to put it into word I will post it but for now it will just be a bunch of thoughts drifting through my mind. I seem to have this problem a lot and that is why I don't really post things very often. I'm not very good at putting thoughts into words so that other people will understand them and want to read them. Maybe that is why hardly anybody comments on my posts...oh well. I'm not going to let that stop me from posting on my blog. Maybe after my trip to washington I will have something interesting to write about but for now this is all i've got.

Worry

Why do we worry? It seems like it's just part of our human nature. It's like if we don't have something to worry about then we end up looking for things to worry about or we worry about things that are not even worth worrying about. Then we wish we didn't worry so much and we get all stressed out. There is something wrong with this picture here. Worrying does not change any of our situations and it just makes us all stressed out and nobody likes being stressed out. It causes us to miss out on some good moments in our lives because we are spending so much time worrying about things. What we need to do is give all our worries up to God so we can have that burden lifted off of us. If we know this then why is it so hard for us to give all our worries up to God? I think it's because we as humans like to be in control of our situations and giving our worries up to God means that we trust that he is in control of our situations. That is hard for us as humans. God says in Matthew 11:28-30, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." This is something that we should all remember when we are worried about something. Even though it may be hard to give all your worries to God and give up control, in the end it will be so worth it because you will be able to experience the feedom and peace of Christ and you will have more joy in every situation instead of being brought down by worry. Christ died on the cross for all our sins so why wouldn't we want to give our worries up to Him? If we don't give our worries up to God then it's like saying that he only died on the cross for some of our sins and that is not it at all. He died for ALL of our sins. We can only experience the fullness of Christ when we have given ALL of ourselves up to God not just some. Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

"that connection"

Do people really care, or is it just that they only care sometimes? I think it's only in certain situations that they care and they don't always care. Close friends...yes, "that connection"...no. It's all a one way thing with everyone and it's all on me. I have to do it all to make things happen or i'd have nothing and people wouldn't care at all. It's just a sometimes thing and I don't have "that connection" with anyone, not one person. It makes me really sad and i'm thinking maybe it's me and I need to do something about it. Or maybe i'm making a big deal over nothing. I'm also kind of tired of it. It's kind of like a relationship where i'm doing all the calling and the boyfriend never calls. I want to have "that connection" that other people have with each other. I have thought this off and on for a while and I don't think things are going to change unless I do something about it. That means that it's going to be a one way thing again and it's all on me. Ugh!