Overwhelmed

So, lately i've been pretty overwhelmed with school. It seems like everything is piling up all at once. School does not come easy for me like it does for some people. Some people can work hard and make A's and B's, I work hard and I make C's and D's with an occasional F thrown in there. I just don't understand why. I tend to compare myself to other people and how well they do in school and wonder why I can't do as well as them but I need to stop doing that because it just gets me doubting myself. My heart is just not in it but I know I need to stay in school to get a good job. Sometimes I feel like i'm being forced into something that I really don't want to do but that not true at all. It just kind of seems that way at times. I havn't had any motivation for school this semester but i've really been trying to be motivated as much as I can be. I wish that I had more motivation to do the things that I need to do for school because then it would be a little bit easier for me to get stuff done. Today it really hit me that I need to get my act together or i'm not going to be able to stay at Texas State. I am going to do everything I can to do well so that I will be able to stay in school. I'm thinking I might need to drop a class this semester so that I can focus more of my time on fewer classes. Hopfully this will help a little bit and I will be able to make it through the semester. I can do everything through him who stregthens me. Philippians 4:13

Why?

Why do you always doubt the potential I see in you?
Why do you doubt the beauty that I see so deep within?
Why do you doubt the knowledge I know that you posses?
Why do you doubt the wisdom that others see in you?
Why do you doubt the strength that I have given you?
Why do you doubt yourself, the one that I created?
When you doubt yourself you also doubt me
For you are my creation, unique in every way
I wish that you could see, the person that I see
The one that is so beautiful, the one that is so dear
I wish that you could see, all I see in you
For there is no other, no other quite like you
You have so much to offer but doubt is in the way
Trust in me and you will see all that you posses
Get rid of all those thoughts, of doubt that cloud your mind
You can do so much if you would just believe
Have faith in me and faith in yourself and you will start to see
You can do all things with strength that comes from me
I am all you need, for I created you in my Image and you are perfect to me

giving it up

Ok so there has been something that has been on my heart off and on since about this time last year. During lent last year I was thinking about what to give up and the first thing I thought of was facebook. I was thinking about it and I just couldn't do it. So i didn't. There were some other times where I was like man I am way too addicted to facebook that I need to give it up and again...I couldn't do it. Off and on I have been feeling like I need to get ride of it for a while so that I can spend more time with God and also more time on homework. Recently it has really been on my heart that I need to give up facebook for a while but i'm just like God, it's not that bad I don't need to give it up. In conversations the past couple of weeks it seems like facebook has been coming up a lot and I end up talking about how I spend too much time on it and I need to get ride of it for a while but I can't do it. I think this might be God's way of saying I need to take a break from it and focus more on Him. Tonight i talked to a good friend and she told me that she has given up facebook until Easter and she encouraged me to do the same. I told her that I would think about it but I wasn't sure if I could do it. Then I came home and it came up in conversation with my roommate and then she thought of giving it up too. We both were nervous about committing to giving up facebook for a month but we decided it was something we both needed to do. This is really going to be hard but I know that with God's strength I will be able to do it. I am hoping to grow closer to God through this time without facebook and to really figure out where my priorities are. AHHHH I can't believe this is really happening but I know that it is something I have needed for a long.