Things change

Have you ever had that feeling where you just know that you are in the right place doing exactly what God wants you to do? Have you felt joy and feedom because of it? Well, I have. The past couple of semesters I have felt like I am right where God wants me and doing exactly what he has called me to do. It has really been awesome, until recently when I have felt like that has all been taken away from me and things are changing. I don't really understand why things are changing the way they are but i'm sure God has a reason for it. I don't understand why God would change the one thing that I know he has called me to do, the one thing that has been such a positive thing in my life and has ment so much to me. I wish that God could reveal to me the reaon for this change right at the beginning cause it would make going through this a lot easier. I just have to remember that in his time he will reveal things to me, so for now I will have to be patient and deal with it the best way I know how. Change is never easy and nobody likes to go through change but if we keep our trust in God he will get us through it.

The weather

So yesterday I got woken up by the rain at 4:30 in the morning...not cool! It took me forever to get back to sleep. When I actually had to get up I went downstairs and opened the door to check the weather and it was soooo cold and raining it was gross. I didn't want to leave and go to class in that kind of weather. But, by the strength and grace of God I was able to finish getting ready and make my way to class. The weather didn't really get that much better throughout the day either. I was hoping that today the weather would be much better but the weather has been kind of the same, with just a little bit less rain. One thing I dislike more than anything is being cold! When I am cold I just feel like I will never be able to get warm again. I hate the feeling! I am not ready for this fall weather yet! It came so suddenly. I want the summer weather to come back for a little while but I think that fall weather is here to stay. I guess I will have to wait till spring for the warm weather again.

Use Me

Spirit of the living God

Fall afresh on me

Spirit of the living God

Fall afresh on me

Melt me, mold me

Fill me, use me

Spirit of the living God

Fall afresh on me

This song reminds me a lot of my dad and he used to sing it a lot at church. It reminds me of how God used him to touch other peoples lives. One thing he used to always say that has really stuck with me is "It's not about me, it's about how I can make a difference in someone elses life." I am ready for things to not be about me anymore and for God to use me to make a difference in someone elses life. If everyone had that mentality just think of what this world would be like.

ups and downs

Last weekend I moved back to San Marcos and I was so happy to be back with all my friends. Things could not have been better. Then last night my very good friend came over and we just talked about everything. It was so awesome! But when she left I had this empty feeling inside and I just wanted to cry. I don't really know why I felt that way but I did. Then today we had a picnic with my campus ministry and I still felt kind of empty, I even felt a little bit down. I then realized that I felt that way because I didn't feel as much of a christian as my friend. I know that it's not true but thats just how I felt. After the picnic I was talking to my friend online and she told me something that has stuck with me for the rest of the day. She said that peole's walks with Christ are all different and people come from different backgrounds. I am just at a different part of my walk with Christ than she is but that does not mean that i'm less of a christian. one day I might be at the point where she is but right now i'm not but i'm still just as much of a christian as she is. I am happy with what God is doing in my life and I know that he is not finished with me yet. God puts people in your livess so he can speak through them to us and I feel very blessed to have have friends like that.

moving

Today I had to get up early for a Dr. appointment in Austin and I was not looking forward to it. There are some things in life that just make being a woman kind of suck. Anyways, I got that over with and it feels good to have that off my list of things to worry about. When we got back to Brenham we had to rent a truck and load what is the the biggest futon I have ever seen in the back of it. When we got home we had to load several other pieces of furniture in the back of the truck. Some very nice friends of ours came over and helped us, which was very nice of them because they are boyscouts and they know how to use bungie cords. During all of this we look up at the sky and notice that it's getting very dark. I was thinking, man this is just our luck that it would start raining right when we put all the furniture in the back of the truck. So we put tarps over it and hoped for the best. within 30 min. it rained for about 3 min. and that was it. So all is well and the furniture didn't get wet. yay! Most of the stuff is loaded in the two cars and the other stuff is on it's way to being ready to go. This is my last night at home with my mom before school starts and it's a bitter sweet moment for me. I am happy to go back to school to see all my friends but i'm sad to leave my mom in Brenham by herself. I know that I will be seeing he on some weekends and on holidays but it's still sad when I have spent my whole summer with her. Now I must finish packing and get some sleep so I will be ready for the 2 hour drive to San Marcos tomorrow and for a long day of unloading stuff in my new apartment. I hope tomorrow will be a good day and I can't wait to get settled in my new place.

Awesome weekend

This weekend I went to lake Buchannen with some amazing people and I really had a great time. It was so nice to get away from things and just be able to enjoy God's creation. I have been dealing with some stuff this summer and for the first time this weekend I did not even think about it and it was awesome! I am soooo glad that I finally said yes to going cause it not I would have missed out on something great. Through this lake trip I feel that I have made some friends that I will keep in touch with for the rest of my life. I think one of God's greatest gifts to man is the gift of friendship. I am really going to miss all the friends that I made on the lake trip. Now that the lake trip is over I have to start thinking about going back to school which is something I am not ready for. So while I get ready to go back to school I will enjoy all the great memories I have from the awesome weekend at the lake.

Ordinary

I have not posted anything in a while because not much has gone on in my life since I last posted. My days are consumed by going to work and coming home to read for school. That is pretty much my life for the rest of July and first part of August. Hopefully something will come up that will give me a break from this boring schedule. Even through this boring schedule I am trying to see the good in it all and how God it moving in my life. You know, so many people think that in order for them to see God in their life then something extraordinary has to happen but in reality God is there working in your life all the time. What we need to do is try to see God working through the ordinary things in life. He is not always going to show up in what people call the extraordinay and if we take the time to see God through the ordinary then the ordinary will become the extraordinaary.